feeling a little bloggy

yep. i am today. maybe its the dose of artsy i just received and the fact that its cold outside today all combines to bring me to my little blog...twice in one day no less.

i was reading in psalms...my journey i started last summer almost complete now, and in chapter 134 it says

come bless the Lord, all you servants of the Lord, who stand by night in the house of the Lord! Lift up your hands to the holy place and bless the Lord! May the Lord bless you from Zion, he who made heaven and earth!

thats it. thats the whole chapter. a little short i thought. so i started to put it down and then it hit me, bless the Lord! yeah, do it. praise him for all he's done and for who he is! so i started saying things out loud {matthews not here :)}.

i started saying all these things that i know him to be...faithful, loving, mighty, merciful, kind, compassionate, jealous, sovereign, all-knowing...and i could go on and on!

so i started feeling comforted. i've been stressing out about graduating and about a job and just who i am. and reminding myself of just who my God is gave me so much hope.

but then i realized something...

sure...i know these things, i know them to be true and i believe them...

but im just not sure if i believe that God wants to be those things to me right now in my life. im not sure that he wants to show himself mighty in my situation with getting a job.

i have to come back, though. i have to come back to all those things i know to be true of my God, and in the same way that they give me hope and comfort, they must also move me to trust in him with all that i am

...even my job{lessness}.

{mustard seed}.